in need of love.

all of us are in need of love. i've seen some people who are just too arrogant to admit that they might like a person or even fall in love. i do believe if some people might not have a first love or even a crush. but, all of us are so inneed of love. who doesn't need a love. he is so not a creature. even animal needs love. from their mom and dad. their owner. so, same like us too. we need the love. plus attention too. don't lie to me if you don't need attention. if you don't want to admit it, be in a room with a lot of people who would not entertain you. or even talk to you. be in that position and you still can survive for like an hour, then i'll believe you are not that human to me.

crush on some one.

we as girls always meet a situation where you'd suddenly have a crush on some one. don't lie to me if you are saying a no to me. please! even for those who already have a boyfriend. you are walking around at the park and suddenly, acute guy just pass by you and give a very most pleasant smile to you. on that moment, your heart would suddenly melts away and you would like to know who is he? or, where did he live@studying@working? what does he do? and so on. but then, the intention only stops there. see, it happens anywhere you see. for some people, they just can't admit it. i once did that too. ok, maybe not just once but, so, what? we are girls. and human being too. so, the day past by and the incident could happen again. and you'd feel the same too. i had a crush on someone, but it is just a crush. so, nothing wrong with that right?

feeling good.

some people have a loadz of difficulty just to feel good. usually, it depends on the situation that happened to them. the level of anger. the higher the level of anger, the harder it could be to cool themselves up. but, cooling up is actually the best thing you could feel in yourselves. just imagine, u just fought with someone and sure it pissed u off. but, once you achieved to cool yourself up, u would feel damned relief and you'd feel as if a big and heavy load just jump ot from your head and you'll feel how easy and nice is the feeling. just like what i felt just now. LOL. i felt a burden for awhile. settled it up and got to talk with my clique like the usual way is. an i felt so good.

again it strikes.

as i woke up this morning. which was kind of late for a GIRL. i ironed my uniform for today that took like almost half an hour. what the. and then, i get washed and get ready to asked the advisor for my venue this evening class. unfortunately, the answer that i was expecting wasn't as what i expect. my original schedule, i was free for the whole Friday. which give me the chance to go back home on thursday. but, too bad my new unexpected timetable have a class on friday. damned i hate it. i was planning to go back home this evening. and now, i have to forget my intention. just because of the stupid damned system that made my whole week sucks! and now. i'm like mourning all day just because of that. i lose my appetite. and i don't feel like talking anymore. the closest one to me seems getting further and further from me. and i just got the answer last night. he do intend to stay away from me. he said that he do still care for me. it just that he is trying to help the relation we had. i don't understand what he want from me. but if that what he wanted, then, i'll give it straight to him. don't blame me if it turns out to be the other way round of what he expected.

soon enough..

I've been going through hard times these few days. all the ones that i thought could always help me to go through the hard times, seems to getting further and further from me. the one that I've been expecting the most was the one who disappointed me the most. why is this happening to me. please. i really need someone or something. just to help me go through this. please. it is getting harder and harder to go through. and the things i've been keeping all alone by myself seems couldn't help anymore. i'm feeling so alone right now. not just that. im feeling how some people who had felt been abandoned before. well to those who felt been abandoned before. i felt it now. damned. i hate these feelings. i feel like crying right now.

HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO people!!!

ok. this is the story. i'm new with a loadz of stuff. get to know me. coz i wanna get to know you too! so, whoever who do knew me. then let it be. for those who don't. well... it is just nice to know you.

well. just gonna c u soon dear. i love you!

opsy. before that. i had a great day today. well,kinda of excited. even actually it's kind of tiring but, i was with my clique! so. who can blame us for being excited in tiredness isn't it. my gurlz had gone through the hard part for this week. n i hope they are in good condition now. with a good feeling too. gurlz, be strong k. i know u can do it. just be strong and pray to allah k. he always there for u gurlz. n i hope i can always be with u guys too. so. good luck ya!

i might look like i like to story up. but for the most of the time, i just kept everything all by my own. n for what is that. to please everyone around. n it is not easy to please every one around you all the time. caose everyone have a diffrent kind of types isn't it. n i believe that there's so damned loadz of people out there who kept by their own just to please around them too. so.. i guess it is not wrong as everyone is doing the same too.

RIGHT?