long2 time.

it's been awhile since the last post i guess. haha. well, loadz of things had happen. n ok, i dunno what else to write. ok, it was my dad's birthday on 6th. n last month's 27 was my 2nd brother b'day. n i pass my resit paper. alhamdulillah. n i'm looking forward in getting a job. so, wish me all the best so that i can do my job. as this is my first time working. lol. k bye.

dieting?

when u r not in the best shape, u can say, ppl tend to diet, xcersize, work out n so much more just to get the shape that they always dream of, n wanted to have. but, as what i can see, most ppl tend to follow the dieting process compared to the others. why meh? well, evn facts shows more on working out if u want to loose some belly or ur big2 numbers.
sometimes, i was thinking, dont u just love the food u eat. i meant by, it is wrong if u love the food and u took it in a very large-large quantity, like i did before. =.=' but, dont avoid the food. the food loves ur stomach, n ur stomach loves them too. well, ur body too in fact. so, love the food. i love u food!

melawat org saket or masjid?

sebenarnye memang la tujuan asal nye nak g melawat org saket. at first, sorang je patut nye nak g lawat. but otw nk ke hospital tu, end up, ade one of my family besar nye member was in a hospital too. so, we went jugak la to both hospital. but settle nye melawat dah pkul 6.30. dlm plan nye nk g jln2 kat sne but, abez pn pkul bape je. then, smpat g masjid je. sebab nak solat asar. alang2, buat la maghrib skli. well, at first my mum nk g kat masjid warne pink tu. i also recommended to her. but, pusing pnye pusing, my dad bwk g msjid lg 1 ni. so, that is the first time i saw n went to MASJID BESI kat putrajaya tg my fren pernah citer kt kami semua. seyesly, i was amazed. tmpat tu sangat cantik.

this is the view from dunno which entrance tah. haha. at first, i thought ni la main entrance die. but, once i got inside, mcm byk plak entrance nye.

c, ade nampak mcm main entrance x? haha.

then we got in. belok kiri je ade escalator. haha. then, kne cari tmpat wuduk. nak m'nunjuk kan la betape bsr nye masjid ni smpai tmpat wuduk pn kne cari.haha.

bsr tmpt ni. well, dh jmpe sign board ni, g r cari mne tmpat wuduk nye. once dh msuk dlm tu. man. beautiful. that's the best word i could describe. subhanallah. seyesly, very unique. too bad, i couldnt make it to take some photos in there. was kinda in rush. takut t'lps asar. sie2 je. well, settle wuduk, 1 hal lg, nk cari tmpat solat. haha. bleh sesat sbntar kat c2. rpe2 nye, td tu, we were at ground floor. rpe2 nye, ade byk lg floor kat c2. haha. and the tmpt  solat is at the highest floor which i cant remeber floor yg keberape. fuh. once dh jmpe je, i had to ketepikan dulu all my amazed n teruja nye. coz, solat dulu. haha.

settle je solat, ape lagi. i took the opportunity took some pic.

this is the tmpat solat. duduk kat situ, man, u'll feel very calm, n tmpat tu pn open. u can see the view outside. which is ade mcm2. sblh kanan bleh nmpak jambatan tu. sblh kiri, bleh nmpak masjid pink.

and this is the best part. the dome.well, i couldnt get the full view of the dome. coz besar gler. n sgt cantik. unique is the best word to describe yg ni.

and this ade dkt middle of the dome. terbaik la this mosque. really nice

birthday si kecik

well, as a matter of fact, xde la kcik mne pn. dh celeb 7th birthday kot. upacara biase, tiup lilin. he~~~
well, here's the birthday girl mlm td.

yg buat peace sign tu. her name is EMMIRA NATASHA.

n yesterday was 27th of feb.

and this is the cake.

x nampak sangat la pulak. he~~ dlm gelap. simple je kan. watpe nk vogue2.

and she tried to cut the cake by her own. nak gak la die try jadi org besar maen potong2 cake. n behind her was my dad. hehe. i called her mira. but others included herself called her tasha. so, there u go girl. HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY. 

a new start.

girls. this is for u guys. even it is actually for my own good pn. haha. well, ni b4 i took this whole crazy day just to clean up the mess.

mesti korg rse truk sgt kan. haha. well. aku insaf dah. kli ni, btul nye insaf. tp, give sme time la babes. aku baru nk menceburi jd girl2 ni. adoi. well, this is before. after i worked out. ni la hasil nye. 

so. tu je! haha. thanks girls coz sgt2 la menyokong. 

conflicts in love.

it's been a while i've note down something in here. i just don't know what i should write in here. sometimes,i was thinking, why do i even have a blog. why bother. i already have one. 


talking about the conflicts of love rite now. i would like to share some story, what love can do to us. some even say, love kills. 


someone who i knew, really had a strong heart. even she has been left, for no reason, she could still barely stand still. i wondered myself, what if i was at her place. what if, someone who i had given my whole heart to, break it as if, my heart was just a toy. i don't think i could actually be as strong as what she had gone through. U rite there! i really do respect u on how u handle stuff. even, she pretend as if she had move on with her life, which she is actually not, i still respect on what she's doing. great job!


well, in this case, it shows that, love don't kill.


as for me, i went through quite a harsh time. as we all know, guys are not good in understanding the girls, right. well, that happens on me. for them, our smile is just a smile. n our silence was just a silence for them. we pretend as if nothing happen, but actually lots had happen. ~sigh.


craps i'm doing rite now. c ya.

love

i pick up these beautiful words somewhere just to share. feel it.

We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else


I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. Roy Croft


As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you. Karen Clodfelder


If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go


Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.
I dont know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too. Chloe Woodward
Love makes time pass; time makes love pass.French Proverb
I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Marilyn Monroe

too much already i guess.

oh!

                                          and now i just realize how much i've talked just about love.

I've got a song which really related to my love story. in the reality for sure. and every time i listen to the song, and deepen into the lyrics of the song, it sure can make me smile, and tell me how hard the love i could achieved. and just imagine, how someone could take love for granted and just let it go once they are done with it. don't they remember how hard is the love to come???

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you


-Taylor swift:love story-

in need of love.

all of us are in need of love. i've seen some people who are just too arrogant to admit that they might like a person or even fall in love. i do believe if some people might not have a first love or even a crush. but, all of us are so inneed of love. who doesn't need a love. he is so not a creature. even animal needs love. from their mom and dad. their owner. so, same like us too. we need the love. plus attention too. don't lie to me if you don't need attention. if you don't want to admit it, be in a room with a lot of people who would not entertain you. or even talk to you. be in that position and you still can survive for like an hour, then i'll believe you are not that human to me.

crush on some one.

we as girls always meet a situation where you'd suddenly have a crush on some one. don't lie to me if you are saying a no to me. please! even for those who already have a boyfriend. you are walking around at the park and suddenly, acute guy just pass by you and give a very most pleasant smile to you. on that moment, your heart would suddenly melts away and you would like to know who is he? or, where did he live@studying@working? what does he do? and so on. but then, the intention only stops there. see, it happens anywhere you see. for some people, they just can't admit it. i once did that too. ok, maybe not just once but, so, what? we are girls. and human being too. so, the day past by and the incident could happen again. and you'd feel the same too. i had a crush on someone, but it is just a crush. so, nothing wrong with that right?

feeling good.

some people have a loadz of difficulty just to feel good. usually, it depends on the situation that happened to them. the level of anger. the higher the level of anger, the harder it could be to cool themselves up. but, cooling up is actually the best thing you could feel in yourselves. just imagine, u just fought with someone and sure it pissed u off. but, once you achieved to cool yourself up, u would feel damned relief and you'd feel as if a big and heavy load just jump ot from your head and you'll feel how easy and nice is the feeling. just like what i felt just now. LOL. i felt a burden for awhile. settled it up and got to talk with my clique like the usual way is. an i felt so good.

again it strikes.

as i woke up this morning. which was kind of late for a GIRL. i ironed my uniform for today that took like almost half an hour. what the. and then, i get washed and get ready to asked the advisor for my venue this evening class. unfortunately, the answer that i was expecting wasn't as what i expect. my original schedule, i was free for the whole Friday. which give me the chance to go back home on thursday. but, too bad my new unexpected timetable have a class on friday. damned i hate it. i was planning to go back home this evening. and now, i have to forget my intention. just because of the stupid damned system that made my whole week sucks! and now. i'm like mourning all day just because of that. i lose my appetite. and i don't feel like talking anymore. the closest one to me seems getting further and further from me. and i just got the answer last night. he do intend to stay away from me. he said that he do still care for me. it just that he is trying to help the relation we had. i don't understand what he want from me. but if that what he wanted, then, i'll give it straight to him. don't blame me if it turns out to be the other way round of what he expected.

soon enough..

I've been going through hard times these few days. all the ones that i thought could always help me to go through the hard times, seems to getting further and further from me. the one that I've been expecting the most was the one who disappointed me the most. why is this happening to me. please. i really need someone or something. just to help me go through this. please. it is getting harder and harder to go through. and the things i've been keeping all alone by myself seems couldn't help anymore. i'm feeling so alone right now. not just that. im feeling how some people who had felt been abandoned before. well to those who felt been abandoned before. i felt it now. damned. i hate these feelings. i feel like crying right now.

HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO people!!!

ok. this is the story. i'm new with a loadz of stuff. get to know me. coz i wanna get to know you too! so, whoever who do knew me. then let it be. for those who don't. well... it is just nice to know you.

well. just gonna c u soon dear. i love you!

opsy. before that. i had a great day today. well,kinda of excited. even actually it's kind of tiring but, i was with my clique! so. who can blame us for being excited in tiredness isn't it. my gurlz had gone through the hard part for this week. n i hope they are in good condition now. with a good feeling too. gurlz, be strong k. i know u can do it. just be strong and pray to allah k. he always there for u gurlz. n i hope i can always be with u guys too. so. good luck ya!

i might look like i like to story up. but for the most of the time, i just kept everything all by my own. n for what is that. to please everyone around. n it is not easy to please every one around you all the time. caose everyone have a diffrent kind of types isn't it. n i believe that there's so damned loadz of people out there who kept by their own just to please around them too. so.. i guess it is not wrong as everyone is doing the same too.

RIGHT?